[A LEVELS in PROGRESS !!!!!!]
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Hi Blog ! So long since i even thought of visiting you !
Since i have been to jc, life has been seriously a different story. I decided to come back because i wanted to keep this MOMent forever in my memories! Two more papers HAha ! I know i have tried my best for my previous papers la, but i sorta been rooting everyday as long as i study at home. Sianx !
CSC (still duno how to study! hahax)
PhySics (hmm.... not proportional to the hard work i put in ... hope it follows the square law instead ^.^ )
MaThs (this one also not bad)
Chemistry (ha i enjoy a lot)
GP (ren subject)
When this ends, its time for me to pursue my goals and my future, please bless me forever.
To all my friends: those tt i once worked with, sweat with, talk to, act with, get scolded with, studied with, gone overseas with, quarrelled with, do projects with.... all those tt once knew me and i once knew you, even those whu just read this ^.^
Jia you ! haha ! its been a great feeling knowing all of you! I wun forget the memories ! we will meet again orh ...
Im gonna changed this template soon le ! when im free !
...will you grant my wish this
time?
6:17 AM
[thanks.. im really trying to grow with all of u....]
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
i have always been reluctant to visit this blog. its been so long since i just wrote here, even after Huang Cheng, i have refused to blog here. There are sum things tt i nvr mention in words but are always in my heart. i know myself too well tt i understand this is the most unhealthy thing to do in my life.
im wondering how i will feel after i graduate, will i be feeling the same thing , or will i totally change. I guess the junjie now is seriously different frm the one he used to be in high school.
The only 2 things that remain: 1) i respect friendships 2) i respect the stage more than i can imagine.
So what if i have acted since Sec 1, i think tt there is no big deal abt tt though i may be the only lucky one. But, i sorta kinda rmb everything tt has happened during pailian last time even when i was in sec 1. Thanks for really inspiring me forward seniors ( you all are the best ! ) Lee lao shi, though i duno where are u currently, i still rmb how u practically take care of all of us when we were in sec 1. And to all my seniors, i can say tt i respect all of u ( zejia, jin hln, aik joon, yang jie , jieliang, junwen, weilong , sam ,....) my memories are still fresh. Xiao pin competition when i was sec 1 was the first time i cried because of drama, my team, my school, my work and my friends... the night of walking to serene centre with lee lao shi and all the seniors was the most long and memorable one in my life. the weight on the feet was unmeasurable and the determination to carry on was never-ending.
My passion for drama started from this dot or rather the failure in xiao pin competition (3rd). At tt time and still now, i still believe tt we are the best! our goal before the competition was to bring glory to huagang and after it ..it was never unchanged. I rmb the pailian everyday including sat or sumtimes sun (if im not wrong) till late in the night was really tiring but the most fun. Doing all sorts of stupid stuff and perfecting everything. (newbie mah) The pai lian area was the current band room before salt centre was built. Lol... the jieliang was like literally ding somersaults and handstands and then BOOM ! drop down.. lol (OH !!! i am the 2nd father of the lost child !!!!!) hahahax we have altogether eight fathers for the lost child...
lol... why am i toking abt all these..i guess these are really my memories tt i really really treasure. it really help me a lot and mould me to who i am right now. 弃婴(new newbie actor) 、厕所 (newbie actor) 、蚊子(newbie actor)、 因为有你 、广东街(newbie director) 、等巴士(seriously old person in the show and abit clean) Upgrade! (also newbie director)
i can say that my whole life in secondary school and jc has been spent on the stage. I have a special affection for this very stage. I rmb tt after the last night of 广东街, i finally spent a night on the stage with my star formation with the poker cards.. abit sane.
hahahax... my first bio test tt i failed was also because of drama la.. hahax.
When i first became director of gdj, i rmb i was forced to do it because im really literally given tt task la. To me, i was nvr prepared for it. But i really really tried all my best to impart wat i have learnt as an actor to my fellow actors. Hope it helps! hahahax.... esp my 3 lead actors.. im really proud of u all.
Now, i have the urge to really go up the stage... lol .. at this hr quite sane though. I guess there is where i can find my true happiness. JC life was the most hectic, tiring and definitely the most painful for junjie. It has been the one that has caused me to change the most. there are a lot of things tt happened througout this abt one and a half yr. I can really say tt i am not as happy as i was compared to my high school life. The word 'happy' was occasionally knocking at my house but never stays for more than a night.
There are a lot of things tt i chose to do out of my real passion and i never regretted it.
- The Stage (no need to say le)
- Community (CIP Exco!!)
- Environment ( though i quited green club because i really think tt its not for me)
- Research (NRP & SSEF) Thanks Dr teo, i really think u are the best mentor i have had in my life !!! you have inspired me and i wish u all the best. You are really very qiang! hahhax can do two column at a time.... while i do one with difficulty. I know u like to sing! hahahax. I really enjoyed working in the lab wif you, sumtimes listening to ur singing though... haha
I have been really preoccupied by many things till now... my studies are really lousy to the core and im really demoralized by the fact that there are too many things for me to do to buck up. Sumtimes i really wonder why i am so stupid and just cant score my exam. When i say im stupid, i really mean it! i know myself... i wouldnt have got into hwachong in high school if i have not worked hard during PSLE. Im not tt kind of smart guy who just read for 1 hr then can score A. I was born to work hard to get wat i want.
Though there are many things tt are blocking my way, i really want to work hard. JiayouS!! Dun wanna disappoint my mum and dad who never put any pressure on me. I know my eng is really lousy, but i have been really trying. Dunno whether i can still score a not. To those out there who are really smart, i must say all of u are really fortunante! Work on ur strengths and help others when u can ! though i understand im not tt smart, i know tt im already one of the fortunante few in the world and in Singapore. If i have the power, i hope to do anything to make a difference and help others.
Tis msg is pretty long. i mentioned to my diary abt friendship which i still treasure. I really hope nth will affect my friendship with anyone. if its me tt affect the friendship, i will punish myself! i know its hard to sustain and really find ur true friends.
I feel that what i do when im with my friends are that: Respect, respect and respect and respect. i can't emphasize more on the importance of respect. To those who doesn't give respect to your friends ( either knowingly and unknowingly), i can say tt ur fren wun be feeling gd. seriously
whether u hate him or her or not, Pls give them the respect. IF u are the one, wat will u think... pls... if u really dun like the person, keep it to urself rather than gg around saying bad things abt them. tt is the worst thing sum1 can do.
When nobody is watching u, tt is when everyting is true.
thanks.. im really trying to grow with all of u....
...will you grant my wish this
time?
8:16 AM
[back to reality]
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Its been long since I first blogged. Must say happy cny to u !
Today went out for 团拜 leh, it was really great being back wif huang cheng pple. I guess its time to go back to reality. In a few more hours time, i will be going for my physics tuition and a for a even more hours time i will be staying in boarding school.
The last few days was a relief for me and now i shall wake myself up. I discovered sth abt ownself recently that made me feel a little bit unhappy. haix, junjie is junjie.. am i being myself and whats the problem with me?
Isn't really in the mood to tok eventually, i must not think too much. if love is sth one cannot stop, why bother? theres no end. Its time i move on.
I realized i have been crazy quite this while, totally not the junjie i knew, am i really enjoying the fun tt i should have? lol.. sounds like im a bit sane now. This two days i have managed to watch two shows that are seriously abit zhai, but im easily contented mah.. so i think both "Juno" and "CJ7" are pretty okay. Sth new that i discover abt myself is that im basically ultra sensitive and reactive to feelings and stuff. Somehow it resulted in the junjie now! lol ..
What shuld i do now? slp? pack bag? or.... jj
... LOL
...will you grant my wish this
time?
10:28 AM
[May everyone shines ... like the stars in my mind]
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I feel very unaccomplished today. Ha.. I hope I can really get well asap. My whole body just aches everywhere since i woke up. There are still many things waiting at the door for me to complete.
I really don't know whats pushing me to complete this. recently, many things had happened and i guess that i'm just too busy to care about all the stuff.
I was glancing through the night sky yesterday when walking down the slope before all the yan yuans and dao dus head to the bus stop. Its the first time that i saw so many stars in the sky. Maybe im imagining stuff in my mind , but guess what i have the impulse to lie down right in the middle of the road.
Im tired i know, but i will persevere to not disappoint all others that care.
one day, i shall walk myself through the terraces at night to take some deep breaths and probably just lie on the grass to sleep. I know i need to rest, but theres no more time le.
May everyone shines ... like the stars in my mind
...will you grant my wish this
time?
6:44 AM
[Year 2008]
Monday, December 31, 2007
Lol ... just came back from my cousin Charlene's new house after helping her move some stuff. Its really very modern, cosy and nice. I especially like the idea of the pond plus the radio in the toilet. hahax. Though i have not slept since yesterday stay over at Melvin's house for the countdown party, I still think a need to blog now.
Maybe probably record the memories and happenings of the last day of 2007 at Melvin's house more vividly on this blog. I can say that this is definitely the best celebration I have had in Singapore. The stayover was especially meaningful with the presence of friends and definitely Melvin's wonderful house. Muahahax! thanks Melvin! Let me recall what we did:
^.^ hmmx Initially Melvin was dressed like a nerd with a short tie . Chao cute. And the funny part was that he indulged in the character for super duper long, until finally he thinks its tiring. lol. Then it was a splendid dinner with jap food + red wine and some bbq stuff. I think the best part of the countdown was the foam party and the lucky draw. Din really know that we can go to the extent of having a foam party outside of sentosa. Lol, i think his parents dunoe bought how many cartons of foam cans. IT WAS REALLY DAMN Fun spraying each other .. and letting everyone smells soapy. Then the night continued with Games like murderer, jokes and the long lasting mahjong session .
hahahx .. all in all .. i enjoyed everything! Today is the first day of 2008 le, though I'm feeling tired already... I already told myself to enforce discipline on myself in whatever I do, if not I will surely screwed up my studies.
Jiayous everyone... i shall go slp now and wake up later to do hw. last min junjie. ... sianx slapping myself gently now.. muahahahs -.-
...will you grant my wish this
time?
11:06 PM
[A New Year]
Sunday, December 30, 2007
hahahax (cute mah? ) lol ..
hahax... feeling very normal le... pls dao my previous msg... lol i was seriously abit sane ..
lol as i continue to blink my eyes, i suddenly discovered that schl is gg to start so soon, then huang cheng shall overwhelm me throughout till march.. die already ... i haven touch anything including lun wen or any hw.. sure freaking die.. haihai hai
shall jiayous.. and do sum real stuff this time ! jiayous .. lol .. still considering whethere should stay in boarding school during huang cheng period.. anw next yr i wanna work harder and enforce greater discipline upon myself. cannot allow myself to not improve as time goes by. hope huang cheng can shine next yr too. !! jiayous huang cheng ! jia yous dao du! and jiayous my future actors ! looking forward to working wif everyone.. it will be very tiring but i will endurE !!
...will you grant my wish this
time?
8:17 AM
[a special christmas eve...]
Monday, December 24, 2007
i apologize to those that care for me, I really cant help it. sorry. I cant just cheer myself up. But i really wanna thanks yh, baox and hongwei for tt fantastic gift. i like the turtle but just duno wat it means leh., shall think of it.
i wasnt planning to blog at this time and in this mood, but sth just pushed me here. probably, today wasnt a day planned for me to be happy. my heart aches.. it really aches. i really feel like crying at this point in time and i just hope u were there to be with me.
its not just ju ben anymore, yesh ju ben had already bothered me for so long. i am so so tired.. everyone is tired.. esp dy and yc. i know all of us tried our best... i really think they are my super duper good mateS no matter wat.
i cant help it but to say the thing tt makes me heart ache is not only the ju ben but the fact that i suddenly realize tt i love her so much. since dunoe when, i have never allowed myself to fall in love wif anyone, probably because i never deserved it. Christmas eve.. 1 more hr to christmas... i really feel very bad. but i will be ok for tml le ! i shall numb my heart for this particular moment. Merry Christmas ! may u find happiness forever... whenever i look at the pic, i will feel even more bad, guess shouldnt have taken tt pic in the first place. but its just fate tt reminds me tt the last piece will always not be there.
...will you grant my wish this
time?
6:48 AM
hahahax (cute mah? ) lol ..